Every time someone finds out I’m a full time blogger their response usually goes something like this, “oh you are so lucky”, “you’re living the dream”, “I wish I was able to do that” etc. And I’m inclined to just say something along the lines of “thank you” or laugh a little uncomfortably. Because how would they ever understand what things are really like?

Life, Set Sail by Chris Amat
Life, Set Sail by Chris Amat
Life, Set Sail by Chris Amat
Life, Set Sail by Chris Amat
Life, Set Sail by Chris Amat
Life, Set Sail by Chris Amat
Life, Set Sail by Chris Amat
Before I go on, let me just say this, I absolutely adore what I do and I can’t think of anything I’d love to do more…except maybe live the rest of my days somewhere by the beach off of an inheritance I’ve somehow miraculously acquired…but even then I’d still blog.

The truth is that I have no right to be a full-time blogger, it was purely a leap of faith that I took last Spring and crossed my fingers that somehow I’d be able to make it work. And you know what? I’m still crossing those fingers! Every single day is a challenge.

I always want to be transparent with you, but I’ve been failing a little bit lately when it comes to the real life side of things and I really hope to get better with that in 2016. I think when people see my photos or that such and such brands send me the latest products that they think I’m doing really well as a blogger. And in some ways I am. I am so thankful to have friends that wants to see me succeed and help me take photos when I need them, not to mention brands that send me products I can’t even afford at the moment…because, lets face it, freelancing (essentially what full-time blogging is) is very unpredictable in terms of cash-flow!

Though my Instagram may be curated in a way that makes you think I do pretty well for myself, let me shed some light on my day-to-day struggles. Because, being a full-time blogger isn’t all about doing exciting things everyday and getting your picture taken in perfectly styled outfits (try more like being glued to your computer 24/7, sending e-mails in your pyjamas and really greasy hair).

My husband and I (who both work from home) have a very strict budget that allows for zero splurges and very little fun time (going out to eat, movies, etc). We live in a basement suite that’s decently cute but has a lot of quirks. We’re talking weird things like low door handles and poor Steven not being able to fully stand up in the shower. Our car is a piece of crap…the piece de resistance if you will. It’s rusty, hail damaged body and purple tinted windows are an embarrassment, though one I can get over. What I can’t bear is that we desperately need new tires, but can’t afford them so we have a portable air pump that we use to fill the leaks multiple times a week. This is starting to sound a bit comical as I type it out. Seriously, every time we have to drive somewhere I fear for my life a little. One thing we haven’t resorted to (yet) is just duct-taping the entire thing together…a very Canadian quick-fix in a pinch.

Most of our money goes to paying bills and feeding ourselves. We don’t go to see my family on the West Coast anymore because every time we do it costs a small fortune. It’s been a year since I’ve seen my dad and brothers. And vacations? Yah right. Full-time blogging has never seemed so glamorous right?

But it is all worth it.

Steven and I care so much about our passions that they have consumed our lives. We love what we do with all our hearts and we love and encourage each other daily but that doesn’t mean it isn’t hard.

Let’s put money aside and talk about expectations. As a married couple in their mid-late twenties we are constantly prodded about settling down, starting a family, and asked what our long-term plans are for the future. It’s horrible! In all honestly we are working so hard trying to make our dreams happen that there is no room to think of anything else.

And of course there is always pressure from fellow bloggers and I know that a lot of it is unintentional, but it’s there all the same. There’s pressure to be the most fashionable and put-together or rather effortlessly put-together (which is even harder) at events (and to go to every event). There’s pressure to do more or to always be available (because if you work from home you’re basically free all the time right?). And worst of all there’s the pressure I put on myself, to be bigger and better, to post more quality content. Sometimes I’m downright brutal on myself.

But it is all worth it.

You know why? Because I sincerely love what I do. Sure, somedays I want to crawl up into fetal position and cry myself to sleep because things aren’t going the way I want them to – or they’re going too slowly. But if anything, blogging full-time is teaching me patience. When so many people do what I do for free it’s hard to make money, so it is truly a labour of love.

I don’t want this post to put you off or seem whiny, that’s truly not my intention. I just want to let you know that my life it not as rose-tinted as it may seem. We all have struggles and this is mine.

While I take my days one at a time I focus on the things I’m thankful for…a loving (goofy, thoughtful) husband, friends that encourage me, brands that keep my beauty stash fresh, health, a roof over our heads, and despite all the struggle still somehow being able to work from home and continue to follow our dreams.

Thanks to all those who comment, like, and follow LSS whether it be here or on one of my social media channels. Your words never fail to put a smile on my face! If you have any questions for me about blogging full-time, or really anything to do with anything, please let me know. I promise to always be transparent with you.

Thinking of making the switch to full-time? My one piece of advice for you is to, above all else, do it because you love it.

xx -b.

dress: c/o gentlefawn (on sale)
-photos by chris amat